Brick by Brick

Thank the lord thats all done with.... finally some progress. Sometimes you gotta sink before you can swim, or in my case paddle around a tad!! being stuborn helps me be selfish in the right wayz! ..... lego!

im spent

i quit!

Sorry... but shes a dudette!

i agree with most of what you wrote... thats why your shit makes sense to me .... always enjoy it. I dont think its pointless either and yeh mine has a simmular effect on me... your world is yours and what you do is healthy doll!

my blogs got the worng name

its really the back to bitch orginal blog!

im as sour as the wine ive necked!

Whats it all about i hear you ask?? phaahaa! well if i had a make sensible answer for that i wouldnt be sitting in pile of hopelessness im currently in!  "dont annoy me" a term heavily used by my dad... i find myself saying it alot!!!!! it really equates to ... im annoying myself!.... next... "I dont know what to say to you anymore"... you didnt know what to say to me from day 1! im kool with that.... you dont know me so well, so for now im comfortable with anything..within reason lol...its all about everything..... it started just over a year ago....(the inpending doom! lol) today im sat here at whatever time in the morning.. dogging work.. pissed on red wine..and stoned... im as sour as the wine ive necked!  its about losing.. yep its all about loss!    and its about all my worlds coliding.... inner and outer!  too tired to vent full on RED rage...but ill muster a FUCK YOU AND DONT ANNOY ME!

its the little things.....

its really not me... well at least i dont hink it is today....  ate my m&ms... and left me 3! im laughing but its really not funny.. im trying to be rational as after all its just a packet of m&ms.... imature i know but ya know what it equates to to me.... if you can eat my sweets and leave me 3, well actaully off me the last 3! what other goodies of mine could you take if given the oppertunity and leave me with a few morssels.... a few scraps left on your plate.....and i do know this for sure... i have a horde of goodies to offer...infact masses!!! im nice but that also doesnt equate to easily pleased or passive!!!!! i have repaetedly given myself a slap at how utterly silly it is... but i always get the measure of folk by the little things..... and then this morning....dun dun dunnnnnnnnnn...POW! ate my porridge and wait for it.... my blueberries.... now ... bearing in mind that m&ms aint my favourtie sweet and i dont really know why i bought them... well obviously i wanted to eat them... at my leisure of course.... but porridge n blueberries are my VITAL start to my day... im all for shareing, ive never been selfish, which is half the problem....but and there it is BUT if someone eats my porridge at 6.30am ..whilst im still half pissed on red wine feeling quiet ill and informs me talking to me is like talking to a closed door...well...HELL hath no fury like a woman scorned! ..... n that closed door can be  locked too!