1..2..3.. and im back in the room

Pregnancy...ectopic, hosptial and operation job! my emotions seem to have umm.. uped  left me. Id rather feel angry than this endless nothing......looking in a mirror... n who the fuck am i looking at... just a month ago i could say i had a great sense of self... today, nope.. nothing, zero.. sighs.                                                                                      " maybe i know somewhere deep in my soul..that love never lasts...and weve got to find other ways to make it alone...or keep a straight face...and ive always lived like this....keeping a comfortable ......distance. up untill id sworn to myself that i am content with loneliness, because non of it was ever the worth the risk..... YOU ARE THE ONLY EXCEPTION!!! gotta love that paramore track!                be good to yourself people!